i want one.

a dry erase fridge? im so for it.

fashionnnn.

my lovely friend from FIDM, Swapnali Ahire, is an amazing fashion designer who is from Columbia also. love her. love her designs. she did charleston fashion week and was awesome and is now doing dracula's costume for Dracula by the columbia city ballet which you should all check out.

one fifteen

color-it-yourself ray bans

these are different. a single lensed windshield for your eyes. by martin margiela

daniel sannwald for dazed & confused

dictionary additions

my mom's texting slang today: mpressed

words im going to add to the dictionary:
yesternight
platonicy
trafficated

i miss downtown l.a.



"we are each of us angels with one wing. we can only fly embracing each other."

water balloons and street art.

splitting a single second into 2000 consecutive parts, allows us to see that for a few thousandths of a second, the water of a water balloon is able to hold its shape without being dependant on the balloon structure.


doris salcedo's art installation

two thirty three

i will let you down, often unknowingly. i will fail you, graceless and with epic splendor.

look, i dont want to wax philosophic, but i will say that if youre alive youve got to flap your arms and legs, youve got to jump around a lot, for life is the very opposite of death, and therefore you must at very least think noisy and colorfully, or you`re not alive.-mel brooks

my house is going to have a yellow door. i think.

when it's grey in l.a. i sure like it that way...

ohh, how i miss it. how would i not miss it? to preface, i love the south, born and raised my heart will always belong to the south and i will always refer to myself as a southerner. however, l.a. was the first place i ever lived on my own. it was my first real, substantial, home away from home; far away from home. but it was mine and i came to feel ownership there and comfort. absolutely, there are those "l.a." types where all the girls want to do is tan and bleach their hair and all the guys want to do is become some amazing actor, however, and especially living downtown, there are some of the most amazing and diverse and artistic and creative people in the world living there. one of the things i miss most about l.a. is the fact that people were themselves on purpose. they truly didnt care how odd you thought they were; they were just happily fulfilled being themselves. which was so refreshing. often times i feel that "the south" has this mold that they want to stick to. and i know i sound so very generalized, but in all honesty this is a generalization so dont think im attacking you personally. however, in the south, and absolutely with exceptions, its like people are occassionally accidentally themselves. i just love how deliberate l.a. is about showing how diverse they are. and obviously there are also some in l.a. who dont fit this scenario either. so dont judge too much of what im saying, just enjoy it.

with all of this being said, it is nice to be home. its absolutely taking some time to get settled back into things and i know ive changed, absolutely. you cant live somewhere for 6 months and not change to some extent. but i like who im becoming. my grandma has moved into the lowman home and is soon going to move again into the assisted living area. and everytime i go to see her i am more and more convinced that i made the right decision. and ella. that beautiful precious angel baby. i cannot even to begin to imagine how much i am going to love my own children. i just dont think i could love a child more than i love her now. and i must say, that when i came home and she ran to me with open arms all while screaming "aun ane!" through her smile, nothing has melted my heart like that did.

:)

Psalms 27:3

Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident.

Christianity.

my mom told me when i was young, "you do not call yourself a Christian. others decide that based on your actions." and that is legit. totally legit. im not ranting about being holier than thou, ill be the first to admit my flaws. with that said, i at best try. i try my hardest to glorify God in all i do. it bothers me, so much, to hear people call themselves Christians and then do things that they know are wrong. Christianity, with 76.5% of the population, is the largest religion in America today; it has become "the norm" for society. people have lost their love for God, if they ever knew Him in the first place, and have found a lust for society's norm. Christianity is about having a full on passionate relationship with The Father, The Son, and The Holy Spirit.

also, i think today's society of religious followers focus on the things that shouldnt be done if one is a Christian. first of all whats wrong with that is the fact that, as what you shouldnt participate in as a Christian is very important, an equally important part is what you should take action with and actually be doing. in some sense, Christianity has become complacent. also, secondly wrong with that: "religious followers." so many people follow religion and they hide behind the idea of, i went to church today [and gave up that one hour of my life] so im a Christian...way to go me. we have become domesticated, which was never God's will for us. and when domestication sets in, that is when satan stops attacking us. at first, this may sound like a good thing. however, it is the complete opposite. how are we supposed to grow in Christ if we're never have to stand up against satan? how are we supposed to rely on God if we never have any problems? when our faith in God is weak and we havent continued to develop our relationship with Him, we're no longer a threat to satan.

with that said, i also believe that some Christians come into Christianity as a way to be saved on their term. a way to be saved from earthly tortures such as diseas, financial delimas, hurt in general. that is not not not what Christianity is about. it is about going through whatever God puts you through and through that, staying rooted in God, to glorify Him. we are saved in Him, not ourselves. a common misconception is that when Jesus died, He freed us from our pain and our suffering. but in fact, He freed us from the fear of death. He died so that we could live. to become a Christian, and whole heartedly believe that, is to understand that we are dead, and now have the opportunity to live forever in Him.

with all of that said, i do believe in the genuine goodness of people and i know a number of people whom i respect and look up to and absolutely would call Christians.

however, with that statement i just wrote without thinking fully about it, i also think that another common misconception is that good people and Christians are the same. they're not. but that's an entirely different blog to type about tomorrow maybe :)

The point, of course, is not that God makes us mentally or emotionally imbalanced, but that He makes us passionately and spiritually unbalanced. God steers us in the direction of His kingdom, His purpose, His passions. His desire is not to conform us, but to transform us. [Romans 12:2] Not to make us compliant, but to make us creative. His intent is never to domesticate us, but to liberate us.-McManus, The Barbarian Way

Romans 12:2
Do not be shaped by this world; instead be changed within by a new way of thinking. Then you will be able to decide what God wants for you; you will know what is good and pleasing to him and what is perfect.

movie making.

i have no idea how to go about making a movie. but im going to make a movie. or at least, someone else is going to make a movie based on my idea. and i cant exactly share my idea out here on the web, but it's a good idea and im very excited about it.